“Tak perlu minta maaf pada Abah dan Umi. Awatif tak buat apa-apa. Dia pilih jalan yang dia mahu. Harap Awatif tak salahkan diri sendiri”
And the rest will follow.
Pejam celik dah dua minggu aku jadi surirumah. If it’s not my mum mesti sebab kucing. Pagi, gua bangun siapkan mak gua nak Subuh. Buat sarapan, hantar dia kat depan TV, gua keluar pegi basuh kandang kucing, basuh bekas makanan, tukar air minum, tuang makanan, korek pasir tandas, sapu sampah, siram pokok. Pastu gua masuk dalam keluarkan kain nak jemur.
After that, gua pi thaw kan barang nak masak lunch.
Pastu buang sampah.
Baru la gua boleh berangan nak rest kejap sebelum nak masak. Perasan tak perkataan berangan tu? Ya, belum sempat gua nak labuhkan bontot, mak gua akan membebel pasal apa saja. Pasal gua, pasal abang gua, pasal arwah ayah n abang sulung gua. Pasal itu pasal ini. So gua akan buat2 busy dan bangun dari kerusi. Gua pergi dapur mengemas apa yang patut.
Itu baru separuh hari punya cerita gua taip pun dah rasa macam what the hell. Belum lagi another 12 hours.
Lol.
“After the first glass, you see things as you wish they were. After the second, you see things as they are not. Finally, you see things as they really are, and that is the most horrible thing in the world.”
- Oscar Wilde
“write my name on a cigarette, and burn it.”
that was the last thing she said to me. and I still have that cigarette. somewhere in my desk drawer, in a little tin box just by itself. I didn’t want to risk it getting crushed if I ever wanted to smoke it. I take it out once in a while, and look at…
Home is where the heart is.
Being with you, is the only home I ever really had.
so hari ni secara sahnya saya bukan lagi seorang pekerja yang bergaji bulanan. i’m now fully unemployed. just took my last paycheck. had lunch with 2 of my ex colleague. berjalan dalam hujan renyai2 dan….
memikir.
I hope this amount is enough till the end of this year.
I don’t know what will happen to me in the afterlife. But in this life, I want to be with you.